Hey you...

Nice weather today...parents went for a swim, *smile* their so weird....sometimes when they fight it seems so serious but untill now ive really just realised they really love each other, by the end of the day it seems as if nothing ever happened...my dad will say something or my mom to suddenly make the tense situation funny and everything just deflates.

Hehehe yea they really were meant for each other, we can all only pray we find the kind of happiness they have found.


Anyway like i said beautiful day so i think i might go out and catch a movie, Sofi is in the room watching the telly...SHE needs to go out more often though im sure she does when im not around. I think ill go to my grandparents tonight....being home alone is very depressing and besides i havent seen my cousins in awhile. I miss the choatic atmosphere...and my little cousins.


Hmmm im starving..hahahaha...no really....i havent eaten anything all day, wheres a maggie when you need one *groan*. Oh and ive find out by my mom actually my family has a bit history with the hotel industry.....even the ones in Ireland...yup...i think 5 or 6 members of the family have been in the industry industry.


So yes its not as bad as it sounds...and im starting to really like this whole thing, ill definately see all kinds of people...places...etc etc the whole sher bang! Which means i really need to take my japanese lessons seriously, having a third language would really really help.

Ok im off..*sigh*, the sun is up for grabs...time i got a bit of exercise in....see you later Hektor ~

Uh huh...

Man i really am weird...

Oh woe me...woe me *slaps poet*

Ayway...sorry about that...*koff koff*. Im back for the weekend it seems...ahh yes home....moms making lamb chops..thank you god , if i had another chicken ide go insane...and my teacher telling us eating to much makes our breasts grow bigger (WTF) doesnt really help.

*smile* ah yes about my situation, i really think im going mental here.....shes all i seem to think about...besides class of course, the teachers have great aim throwing dusters.

So since shes left its been miserable...yea yea drama...spare me, its no picnic feeling like this..i do NOT want to screw this up....shes really great...funny...but has alot of seriousness in her too....which i find deadly attractive *grin*. Ahhh i dont know...i dont know anything anymore, i think ill jump off a cliff...that way ill realise what i needed to realise...though ide die before doing anything about it...unless i put a bungee rope...but i dont think it will work then.

Seeeee??? This is not normal...im not normal (well as far as normal goes, i am a mokhtar anyway) Im seeing her tomorrow i hope...hahahahaha im so nervous its like back in standard 4 and looking at that girl i had a crush on. (though that didnt turn out well) so yea...*koff koff*.


How will she react when she sees me? *sigh* im guessing ill have to ask her straight out if she wants to be with me...

Ok ok im sorry i know this is all ive been blogging about...*Wince*. Im trying to think of something else but i just cant..its like...BLANK. An empty sheet.....nothing...even when i try nothing comes to mind...sad. Maybe i need a hobby...stamps or something (yea right).

Back from Genting...

Well left college on friday...and didnt sleep the whole night in case i woke up late for the bus that leaves for Genting at 8.30 am , hahahaha....so im awake the whole night watching Tv and keeping myself busy. Trip took about 1 hour, it wasnt far!! But you wouldnt be able to tell if you saw the place...its this place high up in the hills where almost everything is covered with the forest you thought you were a million miles away from the next city.


We thought (me and the guys) would have an hour or 2 to look around after getting our beds before work but turned out just getting our pillows..etc etc etc...finally getting into the room took all the free time we had...ceh..


And i really need some new white shirts and black pants....the sizes i wear now look like they belong to my dad , and probally did. Soon i find out in the Hotel this is one of the Major Big Events the hotel was having....about 4000 guest. But i loved the part where they tell us we each have to take care of 2 tables...and 1 had 12 guest... = =.


So yea it was a big event...alot of cops (probally more to guard against the later drunked guest then anything else) and loads of Chinese Models....*shiver*. They had the ones standing in lines at the entrance and the ones pouring drinks table to table for the guest..(not wise whoever thought of that.) Things didnt go that bad...was a bit slow but i got the hang of it..


You never really get tired from these jobs...its the feet that kill you, oh and those bloody tea cups....we have to refill them with chinese herbal tea...ahhhhh and they drink so fast and theres only so much you can pour..(though if it was up to me ide tell them to hold on to the tea pot)

UIT M...

Hey hey....im currenly writing this is a computer room in my college.....classes started..no wait...3 more minutes and our class start though i doubt our teacher is gonna make it. Though i wont keep my hopes up....glad the internet connection isnt so bad...so it was possible not to wait 10 minutes for every page to appear.

The setting is kinda cool...the PC's are underneath a glass panel but ive typed enough times to know where all the letters are so it isnt exactly a daunting task.

So ive just decided i really think im just gonna leave my blogspot at private....there is just wayyy to much private stuff to just show anyone, im a guy...we cant show our....sensitive side...unless its to a hot chick to show we understand what their going through or some crap like that.

ok exactly 2.30 and teacher still isnt in yet...no my hopes arent up yet.

Hahahaha im practically the only guy on my row...the rest are on the other side....probally afraid ill bite *grin*. Nah....ah i have my first job coming up for this semester....another chinese banquet (or however you spell it) but its in GENTING! And since were working till 12AM we get to spend the night...thank you god. Although i hope we dont get some shady hotel and some part of the mountain thats unstable.....still hopes arent high so no worries there.

The pay is about RM50 and i am soooooo using that to pay for my driving license, so what...about roughly 12 jobs, ill need to do 12 jobs and i think i can wrestle 200 or 100 from my parents....12 jobs..*groan*.

Ill live i think...my feet is gonna kill me no doubt...and not helping the only decent shoes i have cut through my skin which makes me walk like someone constipated.

Anyway i better keep this short...teacher might burst in anytime soon...and ide rather have everything logged off in case someone gets funny.


Shes not out of my head yet and i have no idea what to do...which basically leads to me doing nothing.

Oh im back *lands on the sofa*

Ahhhh finally....comfy bed...food that can be eaten...and alarm clocks that dont yell or wake you up by throwing cold water on you couse your late to class but wasnt really your fault couse they wanted to go watch some stupid football match till late in the morning even when they knew we had class the other day and they have more energy couse they sleep in the evening's.

Fuhhhh....

Oh right sorry about that.

Thought ide never get back, first week is always the hardest i reckon....my classmates are all still insane hahahaha, after our first class we all headed out for breakfast at some mamak restaurent....catched up on a few things till next class started but heading back was the best. My friend who was driving wasnt sure of the way back....so he drove really slow to let the others lead the way....and then the guy ends up driving behind us really slow.....and now the other guy (3 cars altogether) thinking were doing something funny drives in front of us and goes really slow.

So for the next 5 minutes on the road there are 3 cars all in a line driving really really slow...hahahahah my stomach hurt with all the laughing, thankfully no cops about *shaking head*....So yea just an example of what their capable of with boredome.

Which is what i was bathed in for the first week.....we hadnt really started on anything yet so technically there was nothing to study, so classes was basically what filled up our day...and when not in class, the rest of the guys are either sleeping...or sleeping.

Me?

I cant stand sleeping....i mean i get enough rest as it is at night so i usually just grab the books i brought i read. (3 books can exactly fill out 5 days) Hmmm so i just have to keep finding 3 new books every week.

'She' is still driving me insane...when i finally get to bed i just stare up at the ceiling lost in thought (untill my bunkmate thinks im acting creepy and throws a pillow at my face) and if im lucky i just drift off. I still have no idea what her answer is....does she feel the same? *shrug* not a clue.

But all in all its good to be back.....almost all of our teachers are new...and YAY no more accounts for this semester..thank you god. The teachers arent bad though i yet to meet them all...but our hotel teacher is kinda creepy...Mrs Fauziah, she talks in english ( to encourage us i think) but she has this accent ( i think she makes it up) and well.....when your trying to copy what shes saying....thats no picnic.(Heck it aint no dinner by yourself with maggie too.)

I mean first she's reading from the book so all these nice charming words pop out....now i can understand them...barely, with her slang and all....but if im having a hard time imagine the rest of the guys? No...im not saying their english is down the toilet....im saying their english is fine but when shes using words where high understanding of english is necessary and they have to filter it from her (god knows what) accent then i dont think were gonna go anywhere.

Thankfully we only had 1 class with her for the first week, errr im thinking someone should tell her though coming from me she would probally take that as an insult (thinking im better then her) so yea....big no no there.


And thats about it...ill add a bit more here and there but thats about it.

Oh yea my class rep is still gay....sooo gayy....he gets near me one more time and his dead.

Hey Hektor...

Ok i thought ide call my blog Hektor, makes things more interesting (for me at any rate). So classes start tomorrow, and it looks like i shall be enduring another week of torture....

I get this deep bottamless pit feeling now of how i think i may be too late....she seems so distant, like...nothing ever really happened. *sigh*. Its to late to stop what im feeling, im already in love with her, i think i always have...and she says she feels the same..but i dont know...it just doesnt show....and i can say ive never felt more miserable happy in my life. And listening to james blunt is not #%!% helping. *shaking head*.

*Smile*, or maybe im just being paranoid...its just ive called...messaged.....and..not a single reply, nor a phone call. God i cant believe i told her i liked her before she left for college....it was more then that, and before i got to the rest...her dad walks down the stairs.

I think im gonna go read a book or something, i wont blog for awhile..sorry Hektor..*sigh*

I have no will power....

*koff koff*.

So yes a blog...ok im limitting it to 2 day..1 in the morning and 1 at night okay? Im sooory but really blogging is so fun, and im soooo free.

Hmmm so just had a really long day...longer then usual..*smile*.

Went to pay my college fee and since i dont wanna bug my mom with her in the nursery i took the bus to seksyen 2...it takes 3 buses to get there...ugh...luckily i took the new Bus thingy KL something that you pay 2 bucks for a ticket and can keep using again and again for that day.

So went to seksyen 2 first to use a pc with a printer, printed the bill from my college website and with that marched to PKNS to pay the fee.(Oh oh i had like RM400 in my wallet..it felt good) ^^. But after all the waiting and taking my time waking up it would have its lunch break at 12.30 and reopen at 2.30 so i left for Mac Donalds......had a doublecheeseburger medium set, and then headed back to seksyen 2 by cab and went online for awhile.

At 2 i made my way back by cab again...it wasnt that far anyway, and everyone was just waiting for that door to open...kinda creepy. Took my time....walked in calmly and grabbed my number....3643...and the current number was...3506, not funny...if your smiling ill kick you.So found a chair, took out my star wars book and started reading.


I always find it amusing that people rarely if ever bring reading material when they know their gonna be waiting like in a bank...they just sit there...doing...nothing. Ide go mad, after looking at everyone (90% stupids..i mean students like me paying their fee's) i notice their holding an extra piece of paper..which supposely is a form, so i ask the girl next to me and after finding out shes a student like me she explains you need the form to fill as well as the that thing from the internet which i have.

So i put my book on my seat and asked this nice old malay fellow for one, and got one i did...sat back (fuh) and continued reading. I think i waited 1 hour and it was just no fun....i think i was going to scream at that lady to stop saying the numbers...the big bloody sign is right there for everyone to see.

So was relieved when everything was done...and took the bus back, bus was full but i finally got a seat....now this i dont get.....ok so we stop at some place and loads of people get in, and i see this malay girl maybe in her 20's standing in front of me....and well i would have offered to the older ones but i didnt see many and i didnt like drawing attention to myself so i stood up to let her sit, AFTER 5 seconds and her not getting the picture i asked her if she would like a sit...and she said "Takpelah." I mean....OMG....

When i offer a seat i offer a seat..maybe shes afraid i contaminated it with some mat salleh desease, and so im standing like an idiot next to this guy for 5 minutse and no one takes the empty seat...were in a bus full to the brim with people standing up and no one wants a seat..its so hilarious i almost burst out laughing.

But anyway the guy standing next to me must have decided ''well screw that im sitting''. Which i didnt mind but still i felt like an idiot. Look next time someone offers you a seat pls just take it....and no im not being all goody 2 shoes...its comman courtesy, look its easy..if your a guy just picture the women standing is your mom..simple.

So i just got back and im dead tired..listening to James Blunt - High like 10 times in a row now...suddenly loving it.

Home Remedy For Low Blood Preassure.

Aha i know i said 1 blog a day but techincally today is today...its 12:01 AM so basically its morning. Crap im sorry im just messed up now....these few days seem to take an eternity to reach tomorrow.......waiting half an hour for the clock to strike 12 felt like days, so yes..everything is going really really slow its driving me insane, which explains why im blogging alot, it gives me something to do...i eyes hurt everytime i touch them couse i cant sleep, i just lay on my bloody bed looking at the dark ceiling and after half an hour of silence turn the telly on and lower the volume so i dont wake up my parents.

So back to the title...i know she probally already knows this but i thought it might help..even if it is a little, took me awhile..stupid goggle is slow like hell or maybe its still just me...annndd here it goes, erm im gonna make this blog last awhile since i wont be able to post for the whole day.





Here are presented a couple of useful low blood pressure cure home remedies:

- Raw beetroot (i dont have a clue what that is..gonna look it up) juice can work wonders in
controlling blood pressure. Consume it 2 times a day.


- Herb Indian spikenard is very effective and must be taken in doses of thirty to forty grains
with a pinch of a little camphor and cinnammon (dalchini). <-- Whatever that means.


- Consume food rich in Protein, vitamin Cm and all vitamins of the B Group, as they are extremely beneficial in preventing and treating low blood pressure. ( Of course im sure she already knows this.)


- Consume salty foods and also while drinking water, put a half-teaspoon of salt in it.


- Soak 7 almonds in water over night. Peel them and grind so as to make paste. Put the almonds in warm milk and consume.


And these are 2 more couse it felt like it wasnt much.


- Soak 32 small raisins in a ceramic bowl full of water over night. Chew them one by one first thing in the morning. Chew well and drink the water also.


- Crush 10-15 holy basil leaves (tulsi) and strain through a clean muslin cloth, Mis with 1 tsp honey. Have it first thing in the morning.





And thats it...the rest are just repeats i guess. I know it probally wont help much if not at all but...i dont know just felt like putting it...and...other things.

Ohhhh so thats what a beetroot is, i saw them in a movie once....i think you can eat them raw.*wince*.

Ok thats about it..my brain is blocked, i shall now go to my bed and stare at the ceiling..*disgusted look*.

Actually i think this is....

Erm this isnt considered a Blog..i just put a pic..

Ok Soooo not my fault..

I know i should just post 1 blog a day....but i wanted to play Blitzkrieg II and when i clicked to start it ( oh erm its a war game) it just shows a red box saying out of range, i mean what in gods name does that mean? That the game program i installed in the pc is in Thailand?

Or my pc cant reach into its file deep enough to retrieve the data? Ahhhhhh so with the option of spending my next few hours playing as a german and killing americans..italians...and russians destroyed...im gonna write a blog..*sigh*.


Now let's see...with so much spare time ive been going through my emails and such....messages ive received, and ive realised she's sent me more then anyone else ever has.....and ive realised how much she really cared about me,not just becouse she sent me loads but what she said in them.. crap and that made me feel guilty as hell becouse i felt i didnt do as much as she did for me. ...and like a jerk becouse i never even thanked her properly for being such a great friend to me.


OK no more blogs till tomorrow. *grumble*

Oh i am so bored.

I cant wait for college to start, maybe then ill have loads of things to do to keep my mind off things.Never was good with free time....going through one of my sisters book to kill the time, ok i know this might sound weird but its normal right for a guy to read girl books? Ok look im as straight as the next guy but i find certain girl books very interesting to read....but not the ones with loads of bad weather and depressing stuff, more like Shophaholic where theres humour and such....sometimes its really fun to read, and gives me a bit of an understanding how the weird mind of a women works.

Besides i still love to read fiction books...wars..and wars and scary ghost and stuff.


So for now im reading about this women whose in her 30's...just lost her husband to brain cancer..ok wait feck it...ill write you the short story at the back of the book...lets see,

Holly and Gerry are the kind of married couple that others envy.Then, at the age of 30, Gerry is diagnosed with a terminal illness. Holly doesnt know how she'll go on without him, and in truth, she doesnt want to.But Gerry has other plans for Holly. Months after Gerry's death, Holly receives a package of letters that he's left for her, instructing her to perform a series of unexpected tasks. With the help of the letters----and her fun, quick-witted girlfriends and a raucously endreaing family that smothers, loves, and drives her crazy---Holly wobbles, weaves, and jokes her way toward a new life, even larger than the one that she'd been forced to leave behind. PS, I Love You is a tender, funny, unexpectedly romantic novel that readers will treasure in their hearts and minds long after closing the pages.

Started reading it yesterday night and i should be done by this evening.So yea its not all about lovely dovey stuff....its stuff i can understand like the weird family...funny friends etc etc.

Yes its true and i dont care if your not buying it damn it.

So i guess its been added to my new list of favourite book types....Fiction-Horror- And erm...Loving Humour. ( Rigghhhtttt.)

Hmmm i hope nads having fun with the program...i remember when they put us through it, it was hell.Tried calling but im usually left with a voice message...i guess i really do have terrible timing, just hope she got my sms's. And i hope she rememberd to top up her hp *shaking head*.

So i think this should be the only post i put in for the day....gonna get my college fee paid today i hope.

So about Part 3

Maybe finishing it all in one day isnt wise...so ill do that by the end of the week. Sorry!

Nadia ~

Well i dont know but with her being away i thought it would give me some time to...i dont know.

I always loved her company be it msn or the visits to her house (Not those kind of visit' s im harmless *wince*) I think you never really appreciate what you have untill its gone,ok yes i know she will only be gone a week and after that be back on the weekends once in awhile from college, but if im missing her terrible now...will it get worse?

After Bahar i kinda just put everything on shutdown.....and hardly anyone reads this if none at all so i feel comfortable enough writing it, I kind of made a small vow that i wouldnt fall for anyone easiely....i hated myself for feeling like that after we broke up...a bit depressing for my taste, i guess ive always used humour as a sort of sheild.

But now with Nad...im afraid...of what im not sure, alot of things i guess....afraid of losing her friendship if this doesnt work...afraid of losing her if i just played it safe.And yet every inch of me is screaming to just go for it...something im not very good at and with no experiance in....sometimes while chatting ill be waiting for a moment when she smiles or laughs....when i say something funny ( i hope) or silly.....couse when she does it just.....oh god this is so corny *slaps forhead*

How she wrinkles her nose and how much she insists on reminding me she hates it..*smile* or calling me wa...(wait im not mentioning that here) knowing it annoys me.She doesnt take me seriously hahaha and gives as good as she gets.

What am i afraid of the most i think? Maybe how she might have always liked me as a friend better, and as long as were friends then thats fine...but i know it will kill me later when we're talking and i watch her do her little things, and know i cant have her. I guess i really do think to much, i want to tell her everything...but time sometimes prevents it..and when we do meet up somehow everything just goes blank.

And i know she sometimes would like to go out but she cant becouse of her parents and such..and i totally understand, but it seems a part of brain it thinking she might not want to go out at the moment..or be with me, (which i know isnt true) how she would message or text me often..wishing me goodnight at college ( i loved those) and how i think things have quieted down now...which i think might be my fault, but somehow i use these as excuses for not calling her...or give me a reason to be annoyed at her...for what? For putting me down this road again.....and yet this is different, its....i cant put it in words.

Since when was life so complicating? And another part of me is saying it isnt...its as simple as you think it is.

Or maybe i just waited too long...i really do want to go down that yellow brick road and end up in some magical otherly worldly island of amoure with you. *smile*

She is.....

One of my favourite Bands...The Fray - She is


She is everything I need that I never knew i wanted

She is everything I want that I never knew i needed

(2x)

It's all up in the air and we stand still to see what comes down

I don't know where it is, I don't know when, but I want you around

When it falls into place with you and I, we go from if to when

Your side and mine are both behind it's indication

____________


This is going to bring me clarity

This'll take the heart right out of me

She is everything I need that I never knew i wanted

She is everything I want that I never knew I needed

(2x)

This is going to bring me to my knees

I just want to hold you close to me

She is everything I need to that I never knew i wanted

She is everything I want that I never knew I needed

(2x)

She is everything I needed

She is everything.

15 TO 12

Which means in another 15 minutes its gonna be 12. So bought breakfast...or lunch in my case,went swimming...did the laps, and now im back here to continue my story.


PART 2 ~


Miro's sister Sasha fell ill before winter came, their parents though it was just the comman cold but after a week and the flu getting worse they called the village doctor, the only cure it would seem could be only gotten from a type of herb that grew on top the moutains but to go there with winter closing in would be foolish. But the neighbouring villages that lived at the foot of the mountains usually collected and stored them for their own purposes.

Unfortunately Sasha was to ill to make the trip so their only option was to get the items needed and let the doctor do the rest.

"There you are." Miro whispered to himself as he saw the figure on the road making his way past him, probally a lone bandit hoping for easy pickings. But then again...probally a scout, so miro kept his distance and continued making his way as silently as possible.

Oh dam it my mom needs help with something..guess ill finish this later...^^
Thanks for reading!

The Morning Wind ~

You know its been raining at dawn....so the air is still a bit chilly...and when the wind blows...*shiver* i love it hehehe, thats whats happening now as im typing this its 9.38AM. Left Mtv or V channel on in the living room so the house isnt completely quiet....sis just left for the first day of school this year this morning and my moms at the nursery so i have the house to myself.

Hmmm sad...


I think ill listen to a few songs...and get some swimming done, hmm also need to pay for my second semester fee's.You know...i was reading a bunch of my old post and i realised i wanted to get feedback on stories i would post here.So i think ill write in a short story and you can tell me what you think about it okay people? (As in the only 2 people on the face of the earth that read my blog)


Miro felt a tingle go down his spine, despite his fathers caution of the area he had decided to travel through the icy roads to reach the neighbouring village where we would get the help he needed for his sister.Usually the road was safe enough but that was during the day and were it not for his fathers weak heart he would have made the trip himself.

He stopped and looked around...the wood were quiet, but Miro doubt it was becouse there was something in the woods....it usually was during the winter.

Somewhere in the distance a twig snapped.

Miro heard it instantly...being a skilled woodmans he knew enough to know that it wasnt his mind playing tricks on him, but to call out would be foolish...bandits and thieves often made these places their home and calling out would only bring attention to himself, be it human or not. He ran his finger through his fathers staff roped on his back...something he prefered having then nothing at all.

Still, waiting in the middle of the road or checking the source of the sound wasnt wise so he decided to walk through the tree's...his sight not far from the road so he wouldnt get lost, he could already see the village fire and it wouldnt be long now before he got what he needed and returned.

END OF PART 1 hehehe got you there huh? (yea right i wish)

Anyway yea i gotta go down and buy breakfast...starving..then swimming i reckon, thanks for reading.