The Release.

Second post in 1 day, the end of the world must be coming. But i felt like writing though i have no idea exactly what i am about to type. Maybe ill just make random topic, but leaning towards Life from the way i see it. Maybe about how almost everyone of us dont know what we are doing most of the time, and how everything seems so massive and huge and complicated its a wonder how any of us are gonna fit into this whole scheme of things.

But hey im just thinking outloud, so forgive me if this gets weird.

Earth, ah yes earth...i never get tired looking up at the sky especially if its a clear night, somehow seeing all those stars, i mean its infinate, space just goes on forever and ever and ever and ever...and to realise we are just this really tiny planet, I mean i could be born a blob on some planet called Kikilala and the chances of that happening would have been higher then being born this planet. In this particular age, where fastfood exist, the internet (porn, har har), and tech that are amazing and fantastic that are invented everyday.

I mean that has got to make life itself worth living, but sometimes i forget...which might explain why im posting so i can remind myself more anything. I have to remind myself that i can do and be anything i wanted, that this life i have is the only one i have...for like.....ever, this is it. And i have to enjoy every second of it, i love making people laugh, i love watching all my cousins and the rest of the family couped up at our grandparents place with the yelling and screaming, i love being in love with a girl who understands me and loved me for who i was and the shitty baggage that comes with it, i love sitting on top of the roof sometimes and watch the stars and listening to my almost dieng Mp3, i love watching people from 2 different races and culture together, i love that god damn song in discovery where everyone sings their favourite routine, i love being around my friends, i love travelling, meeting different people and breathing in a different kind of air, i love sitting next to the window on the plane and watching the clouds and the city lights, i love my moms cooking, i love watching how my parents are with each other and how after all these years they are still very much in love, i love my nieces and nephews and i should spend more time with them. (ill spare you the others)

Life is just so short to waste it on being depressed or angry or sad...but of course shit happens to make us feel the way we do, and sometimes its so bad you just cant seem to shake the feeling off and so it just screws itself deeper inside you. But at times like these its the things you love and the people you love that help you get through it, even better when you have someone you truely love and respect to go through with it as well. I have so many regrets, stupid small mistakes that leads to another that leads to another ( you get the idea) and i know i screwed up bad, like real bad..and just because i want to fix it really bad doesnt mean its going to happen.

It didnt matter that some old guy that lay dieng in some hospital bed regretted everything he did, how he wished he could say he was sorry to his son, or wish he didnt act the way he did that caused his wife to leave him, it was too late. And no amount of wanting or trying would change that.(Note i said his gonna die any second so no he cant call his son in time)

So in a way you can redeem yourself but dont always trust that oppertunity to come knocking, not everyone you hurt will forgive you, not every stupid mistake you do just goes away. So what do you do? I think you need to forgive myself first, to stop hitting yourself for messing up, no one is perfect...you will always, and i mean always mess some major shit up but thats what life is all about isnt it? Giving you crap so you learn from it. Somehow this is straying hahah, but i think you get where i am going at here. (i hope)

Ok at this point my mind draws a blank, and im really tired. -yawn-
i might continue, then again maybe not. Good nite ~

The Legend of Zelda?

Hey hey and good afternoon to anyone and everyone, it is currently 12pm here in humid Malaysia and i have just gotten back from another driving test, it shall have been my third one...erm..this week. It seems to be going well, i mean besides the part where i almost ran down a police officer it was all good.....hehehe *evil laugh*. Note dont say "So your life is in my hands huh?" to your driving intructer before you drive, you get a better effect 5 minutes later on the road.


My grandfather god bless his soul passed away a few weeks ago, and im glad i got the chance to see him when i could last time when i was back...but of course it was never enough. Fortunately my mom was already in Ireland a few days ago before that so she got to spend sometime with him. I hope shes alrite, im terrible at cheering up the people i love when they got really upset or sad.

So my brother aaron is moving in a couple of days to the 12th (or was it 16th floor). Dear god before you know it the whole family is gonna each have their own floor, its kinda like living by yourself but technically not really. Although he is bringing the PS3 along so all is overlooked and forgiven. *nods seriously*


2 Brilliant games, no wait 3 are looking to be out this year which i can hardly wait for....*drum roll* STARCRAFT 2 (YAY) , DIABLO 3 (YAY) , AND CATACASLYM WoW (YAY) They all are so awesome i dont even have a favourite. But i really need to get this shitty old come upgraded and once i get the release ill start tinkering with it, that way if it blows up in my face ill have time to prepare.


The fridge is empty so every meal is like a battle for SURVIVAL. Plus im out of cash too since i havent had any request for drawings done this month hur hur hur, Penpal is such a bIt#h. And yes i am still in Kickboxing at SS15, ive made a few friends and it really is a great way to exercise...it is of course mentally and physcially exhausting but its a price i shall willingly pay to get MAH SEXAH BODEH.


Nothing much besides that, i think i should have my license by the 13th and Aifiq might decide to throw some huge party or something to celebrate. But more like a 'DEAR GOD HE FINALLY GOT IT' then a 'CONGRATULATIONS' kinda thing...they just need me to drive them home after they get wasted since i never get drunk. = =

Oh which reminds me before i go, A MUST WATCH. I have tons more of these posted on my facebook profile.

Heeeyyyy ~

Your lipstick stains on the front lobe of my left side brains
I knew I wouldn't forget you and so I went and let
You blow my mind
Your sweet moving
The smell of you in every single dream I dream
I knew when we collided you're the one I have decided
Whos one of my kind

Hey soul sister hey that mister mister on the radio stereo
The way you move aint fair you know
Hey soul sister I don't want to miss a single thing you do
Tonight
Heeey Heeeeey heeeey...

Just in time I´m so glad you have a one track mind like me
You gave my love direction
A game show love connection we can't deny
I´m so obsessed my heart is bound to beat right
Out my untrimmed chest
I believe in you like a virgin your Madonna
And I'm always gonna want to blow your mind

Hey soul sister hey that mister mister on the radio stereo
The way you move aint fair you know
Hey soul sister I don't want to miss a single thing you do
Tonight

Well you can cut a rug
Watching yous the only drug I need
Some gangster I'm so in love
You're the only one I'm dreaming of you see
I can be myself now finally
In fact there's nothing I can't be
I want the world to see you'll be with me

Hey soul sister hey that mister mister on the radio stereo
The way you move aint fair you know
Hey soul sister I don't want to miss a single thing you do
Tonight
(Repeat)
Heeey Heeeeey heeeey, tonight