The Scary Unknown future.

Becouse im finally starting to think awhole lot about my future more seriously then i ever did before, i cant continue just hanging around the houses and doing nothing while waiting for my course to continue or whatever and get away with it. Im 19 this month, hahahah and as young as that sounds getting a secure job isnt as far as it sounds....especially after the years of study your going to be doing before that.

And no i dont picture myself working at all in the hotel line in the future, ive always wanted to do something different...unique....or whatever.In truth its my sayang thats helped get a few things i needed to get realised in my life......we've already gone out a few times and so and ide like to know i can afford to take her out, to buy her flowers now and again....to take her places and drive by her place when i want too without waiting for a cab. 19 and i already feel responsible for her...haha...*sigh*.

I've decided not to join this DCHL Network Marketing plan (for now at least).....first of all as great as it sounds i have no clue in doing business and if i ever did consider doing it it would be later on when i have a job and know alot more about it....and yea....thats that. Hey if theres rezeki then its not going anywhere.

Im seriously considering resitting for my SPM this/next year to improve my grades and get in Physics and consider doing the pilot course my best friend aifiq is doing.I've always liked flying or being in a plane...and you get to travel the world....well only at airports but still. And no its that im dumping one thing becouse im bad at what im doing and going for something else (Which in a very very small way is) but i want to start fresh again......i want to study hard and do everything right again, fark im only 19 so studieng a few months and getting results that could change the way my future went seems like a very very small price to pay.

And i wouldnt say i wasted a whole year, i did a certificate in hotel management...i learned something if not that much and i made friends. We shall see how it goes......im going to discuss this with my parents and ask on what they think. It would be great if i could do this years SPM but im afraid i wont have much time since its in november and its already july, which gives me roughly around 5 months.

But i think if i really took the 5 months seriously and studied hard i can do it. Nadia has been wonderful in all this.....last nite when i thought i had already decided on doing this DCHL she was very supportive and said if this is what i really wanted to do then i should go for it. Of course i havent told her about the spm thing yet....err yea wonder what she will think of that?
*grin*.


Anyway shes in singapore now, she left this morning by bus with her mom and no doubt they spent the whole day doing what girls do in singapore...land of shopping. Gahhhh i havent topped up so i havent been able to reply the sms's shes been sending telling me what shes been up to. God i miss her so much, it would take 2 second having a converstaion with her to make me laugh or smile....she just makes me feel amazingly happy. Ive promised myself to do whatever i can to make her happy....and pinch myself every morning to make sure this isnt a dream. I love this girl so much........its....its......



Beyond words....I love you Nur Nadia nyaz Ahmad....so much


You could say being with her that you could have had your house burned down...been robbed.....just got fired all in the same day, and know things are still gonna be okay or smile hahahah couse as im picturing it now shes sitting next to me with that smile on her face saying "Well at least you have your health". = =


- Ok there is no point is keeping this on hold so as soon
as my parents come back im gonna talk it over with them.......i really have to start thinking
about what exactly i want with life, and the sooner i figure that out the better...and im
preety sure doing nothing wont help. *smile*. Anyway.....wish me luck....with my whole damn life hehe..



PS: Missing you loads empress ~

Yours truely,
Ali. XXXX Lotsa kinky love.

Rediscover - Shake it.

Hola....new post! Its been awhile...hahaha been a bit busy...well...no....erm....hmmmm.....god knows. Well here it is, finally a post...So i just got my UITM results ( ah crap) and i got 2.85 which isnt.....sooooo bad, but to my dad of course its crap though for him anything i do is crap so meh didnt care what he thinks....cranky bugger, god i hate how sofi gets away with murder with my dad.

Well nvm its been years and im already used to it, i get moody but nads always there to cheer me up.....i love that insane/beautiful/weird/amazing girl so much i cant get her out of my head. In 2 days it shall be our 1 month anniversery......jeez its already been a month, feels like we just got together a week ago.

Hahahahah oh yea i was at Nads today with puteri and khaliesa and it was fun, Nadia really has great friends and i know they care about each other. Well from what little i know......couse technically im still the 'outsider' hahaha. And after they left i stayed for awhile....later got a call from my dad saying sofis stuck outside the house becouse SHE FORGOT HER HOUSE KEYS, bloody smart lass. *sigh*.

But cabs were hard to get at that time so i had to wait till 7 before i could actually get one....by that time i talked to her mom again....oh yea her parents come back from work together. Errr yea i dont think her dads like me very much, he gives me these creepy looks...those *This is my pride so watch your step little one* look.

And he looks a bit like my dad...beard...gruffy look....so yea....*shiver*.

ANYWAY.....did i mention i failed japanese? Ah fark it...that means ill be taking that again....and i dont know if that means i wont do my practical! Which i must must do.....becouse my dad is sick of seeing me around the house. Hahahah...no really! He is....his as touchy as a septic bum these days...i swear to god. So yea....i have to call my lecturer to find out whats going on, but she wont answer her bloody phone so for the meantime im in the shit.

So everything is so and so...Oh Marina (brothers wife) delievered yesterday! And i hope everything is well with them...havent gone to see them yet, i think ill follow my parents next time they go.....becouse well she just delievered and she must be exhausted and such.

So got back around 7.40....sofi was pissed....pissed...hah! Not my bloody fault she doesnt havet the keys, found out she spend RM16 at the cafe for her dinner! And our bloody budget was 5 bucks each my dad left us.....when he finds out shes in my room on the pc so somehow im the one that gets the whole *Sajer buy so expensive to spite us crap*. Went to buy Tandoori becouse i was just having wayyy to much maggie these days....ugh.

But on the way i met the cat that hangs around the local malay restaurent that was close.... she had her kitten with her! It was still a few weeks old and was adorable....me being the sucker i am spend the next 15 minutes playing with them....had nothing much so played with the kitten with my shoelaces....it didnt mind...as long as it moved it seemed.

Finally got my tandoori (got back realised they burnt the chicken... = =) and gave a small piece of chicken to the cat and headed back home. Just as i waiting at the left my parents get back so we go up together and thats that. Oh yea the picture is us in nads room, left is Khaliesa then puteri then me then my love of my life. Err and the lizard is mika. Spot the crazy one.

Annnndddd thats it!! Oh and i love arab food....you know how they make their meat a bit sour, yea.....da bom..hehe...mmm...yea..*clears throat*.

Smack that.....

Cant get that stupid line out of my mind ever since she said it. = =

Happy Birthday To Me/Zorander/Something.

HAlor so im 19 today! And as im writing this i have 44 minutes till my day ends...hu hu hu, god im 19.....*old voice*. But it certainly was an 'interesting' day. I wake up at 8am (way to early for me) force every family member to wish me...hahahah..nah messing..(maybe)...and get on the pc at 8.30 am, realise im wayyyy just to tired and sleepy...go back to bed and wake up again at 9.30.

Thought it was going to be one of those normal days, except i know me and nadia maybe plan to catch a movie and such. Suddenly in my boxers and black shirt the phone rings and its for you....and its this guy....who at first i think is amir....which then sums up the idea that nads with him and shes planning a suprise...(ahh my sharp and quick mind) but then its actually a delivery...which....well....uhh...yea delivery...right...not buying that for 1 second but its within the realms of possibility.

Hahaha...so after 5 mins im seriously doubt i have mail and start panicking couse im thinking nad might on her way up, so i quickly grab something decent and pants...(cant forget the pants) and i run out the door....and i hear this noise (spooky) and at first i think its the maid? Becouse i plan on suprising her at the lift....of course by the time i realise it shes the one behind me...so yea.......damn.

Okaayyy a bit draggy there.....anyway she bought me a cake! I mean...wow....if im lucky i might get a cake....but this girl im madly in love with wakes up early in the morning....buys a cake...and gets her friend to drive all the way to the condo...fight the condo guard for entry (hehe) and do her best to suprise me. That day alone could have made my year...nvm day...hahaha.

Ok screw this ill post then change it......do later...ZzZzzz


Anndd im back...its been..(2 days) just so you know.
Well my mom had her shock....guest coming in and the house in a mess hahahah which is usually all the time...(The house being in a mess that is) so she quickly did an emergency inspection of the house and especially my room..*blush*. Somehow the plan for leaving the house and watching a movie took too long so she decided we should just spend the rest of the day at my place (Fine by me...hahah *koff koff* anyway.)

So yea cake was shared with the family (she must have scored a few points there) and well i had fun....couse well no ones ever done that kind of thing for me (besides family). And what i love the most is how she can still suprise me after knowing her this long, something new everytime i see her....which makes me miss her terribly when shes not around.

Ah also i checked up on my practical and it seems we shall have to wait for our results.....im enjoying myself which worries me becouse time just flies by so fast when you are....