The Foreign Legion.

I always wanted to be in the army, ever since i was a kid really. But i never had that gut feeling to go through with it, things seem better when the thought of joining the Irish or British army came to mind, i guess because its in Europe and all and i love to travel. And somehow i think i wont get around as much in the Malaysian army, and what if i stuck with rempits, god help me. I know you can op to travel in the Malaysian army, but i think somehow as i go down that road ill never have the choice of either spending my life in Malaysia or another country of my choice.



The 3 weeks i spent in Ireland was the best yet, how my aunt put up with me i have no idea her i love dearly and her 2 kids ( my cousins) and of course her husband, and the same goes for the rest of the family back home. But during my time there i found out about the Foreign Legion, and this just felt right to be....as i searched online as much as possible about it i realized this was it. To be around people of different cultures and beliefs but working together, as a team..and being part of a family and something bigger then myself. (You can wiki it for more info)



I know its tough, heck any army training is tough, but im prepared....Ive been ready for this for years...i need to push myself and see what i am made of.



So ill do some light exercises to start getting my body in the right timezone (Malaysia, i just landed from Dubai and the day before Ireland). And starting Monday i start pushing myself, there is no one to force me to do anything, i will WANT to take up at 7Am....to learn up on French as much as possible...and train my body to be ready for the test the Legion will place upon me. And god willing if i am accepted i will except nothing but to be the best on anything placed upon me, maybe with the Discipline and Honor installed within me when my 5 years is over i will see where i stand on this world. And if i see that i stand with the legion then perhaps i will make a career off of it.

Wednesday, oh wednesday......ohh....oh..........ooo snap

It is currently 2.25 AM and god damn it I cant sleep, I get really weird freaky dreams that are best not known to mankind and so I just stay up and keep busy till im so tired my brain will surrender to a no image closure agreement and everyone is happy. Sofi and Sarah (sisters) leave for Dubai tomorrow night, so we had dinner near Subang Parade, Arab restaurant, food wasn't bad but then again im often at these places just for the shisha. So while having dinner we started debating on the health issues of the shisha compared to cigarettes. I always thought the shisha was a safer bet since it didn't contain nicotine but then Sofi said the amount of smoke you inhale balances out the crap from a ciggy, basically the argument got nowhere so we decided to look it up when we got back...and this is what I got.

Although the use of Hookah (shisha) has been commonly attributed to be much worse than regular tobacco smoke, tests remain inconclusive as to the true health impact of the hookah. Some studies conclude that Hookah smoke is safer than tobacco cigarette smoke[27], while other studies refute this claim.

Each hookah session typically lasts more than 40 minutes, and consists of 50 to 200 inhalations that each range from 0.15 to 0.50 liters of smoke.[28][29] Reports by the World Health Organization and the American Cancer Society have shown that, in a one-hour hookah session, users consume about 100 to 200 times the smoke and about 70 times more nicotine than they would in one cigarette.[30]

The water used to filter the smoke does not work efficiently to remove all the harmful chemicals.[31]

A study on hookah smoking and cancer in Pakistan was published in 2008.[27] Its objective was "to find serum CEA levels in ever/exclusive hookah smokers, i.e. those who smoked only hookah (no cigarettes, bidis, etc.), prepared between 1 and 4 times a day with a quantity of up to 120 g (the average bowl in holds 30g) of a tobacco-molasses mixture each (i.e. the tobacco weight equivalent of up to 60 cigarettes of 1 g each) and consumed in 1 to 8 sessions". Carcinoembryonic antigen (CEA) is a marker found in several forms of cancer. Levels in exclusive hookah smokers were lower compared to cigarette smokers although the difference was not statistically significant between a hookah smoker and a non-smoker. Also the study concluded that heavy hookah smoking (2–4 daily preparations; 3–8 sessions a day ; 2 to 6 hours) substantially raises CEA levels.


Basically its their both just as bad, but as I do shisha like..once every 2 weeks its all good...I think, ok this wiki doesn't really help. What was interesting though was finding out that this stuff actually could have originated from India...hah! Bet most of you didn't know that (myself included) always thought it was a middle eastern thing.

The secret is finding out whats your favorite flavor and sticking with it, and since you can mix them around it usually takes a lot of experimenting before you find the right one for you..then there is finding the place that does it right. In Malaysia we get a lot of those stalls then leech on to mamaks or other restaurants and open up small shisha booths, I suggest you avoid these since they more often then naught use bad quality coal thus ruining the taste and your lungs.


But once you find the right spot and your best flavor its just a matter of taking a break after a long day and blowing your troubles away, preferably not in someones face. I find Grape-Mint a good combi. Ill edit this later as soon as i remember a few good spots in KL for shisha....err..ing..

Ive got the Magic in me.

Ugh its been awhile since ive written anything in this blog/thinking out loud place thingy. Im 22, and though i dont feel old ive realized SPM was 5 years ago, i cant believe 5 years have already passed by, its insane....i dont think i have gotten the most out of what i wanted in life, there is so much to do and so little time to do it. Plus i really need to get my shit together, like now.


ill be trying out for the military come next year, i decided to postpone the whole living in Ireland thing for a few more years....learn whatever i can from here first. Because i have a feeling when i leave im not sure ill be coming back.

Family aside i have always been more comfortable around my own company...no not a loner, i blend in when i must but i dont mind going at it alone....jeez that sounds bloody goth like depressing doesnt it? Well it isnt, think of it as those journalist or explorers that travel the world searching for something, too deep? I think its a load of bollocks actually (i really wanted to type that word) but sounds cool.


Although i know ill probably go out of my way to do something so different from everyone else, that is just who i am....im the retarded lemming that 'wont' jump off the cliff, so to speak. Blast i dont even know why i keep writing this thing, i love writing but i dont think blogging about myself is my passion...i should really stick with stuff made up in my head, those are usually easier to write about. Maybe i should blog about other stuff, like...........





















Cats....no.











Well damn if im not gonna find a topic to talk about, alrite here is how its going to be. Im gonna explore the internet or maybe just while im randomly surfing, pick something i find interesting and discuss it here...yea...that sounds brilliant, better then my constant ranting anyway, bla bla life...bla bla sex. (just checking)


And i already found a something to start off with.




Now this is brilliant, the video says it all so watch it before continuing to read. What im curious to know what would YOU do in his position, do you stay in the relationship or break it off...

Personally i say stick with it, if being with her is as great as it is, then blast everyone fucks up now and again, yes shes an idiot but you can bet your ass shes gonna listen well from then on...although i am the type that forgives and forgets. Humans are such interesting creatures.

Ach me Toe.

Hello again, as i type this the cat is licking herself on my mousepad and the Tv drones on about how amazing guns are on some Dicovery Channel. Things took a turn for the worse yesterday when while kicking the shield bag we use for our training at the kickboxing studio yesterday i accidently somehow almost pulled my whole left toe nail out.
This is gonna seriously mess up my training and stamina build for the malaysian kicking record due end of june, i barely have enough time as it is so this isnt good...of course everyone panicked hahaha and i was more like "ah crap", because the pain wasnt that bad...i just found it interesting how a piece of me that has been with me since i was born almost got ripped off and might have to be pulled.Much thanks to my teamates and friends who got me bandages and Lani who walked me to the clinic *sniff*. So seeing the doctor it seems i would have to take a few tablets and and injection 2 days later to get the nail removed, i smiled, nodded and got the hell out of there.

Im just gonna leave it how it is and if it comes off then it comes off and if my toe suddenly grows 10 times larger then ill get it fixed. But enough about that seriously disturbing stuff. (still preety cool though)

This is one of the seniors there (though younger then me) Faiz, nice guy.

And this is what we really think of Faiz.



Just kidding Faiz...*whisper* maybe.*

Moms back in dubai after being in Ireland for her dads funeral, she seemed ok and said it was a lovely funeral...i mean not your like your average funeral but really touching stuff, so uh it must be true. I wish i was there, but ill remember the next time i go back to ireland to visit him and finish a whole pint of guiness in memory of him, i know its stupid (hate beer) but i think i have grandpa to thank all those years ago for giving me a sip when i thought it was coke and taking me off beer forever, i dunno...it feels right.



Been working on my celtic again since my friends brought it up, gonna head down to parade tomorrow perhaps and get anything i might need...especially really really thin and sharp pens for the detail, i really hope to draw like my uncle one day. Im also loving the fact its right after i take money out of the cash machine is when i suddenly need to use half of it right away, that night alone i had to pay for the clinic and medicine, then slippers because i came with shoes so that wasnt possible and plus the studio fees. -facepalm-


Mom wondering how my love life is going, its going alrite, going...going...gone hahah...its alrite i guess. Dont mind being single but your really do miss the companionship (no not sex), you know doing stuff with a person who understood you and what you were about and vice versa. But in the meantime i try keep myself busy. (i love pretending everything is alrite *grin*)



So im off to soak in Detol and see if i can make it for training tomorrow, i still have other body parts (no..nooo) to train even if my left leg isnt working at the moment.

The Release.

Second post in 1 day, the end of the world must be coming. But i felt like writing though i have no idea exactly what i am about to type. Maybe ill just make random topic, but leaning towards Life from the way i see it. Maybe about how almost everyone of us dont know what we are doing most of the time, and how everything seems so massive and huge and complicated its a wonder how any of us are gonna fit into this whole scheme of things.

But hey im just thinking outloud, so forgive me if this gets weird.

Earth, ah yes earth...i never get tired looking up at the sky especially if its a clear night, somehow seeing all those stars, i mean its infinate, space just goes on forever and ever and ever and ever...and to realise we are just this really tiny planet, I mean i could be born a blob on some planet called Kikilala and the chances of that happening would have been higher then being born this planet. In this particular age, where fastfood exist, the internet (porn, har har), and tech that are amazing and fantastic that are invented everyday.

I mean that has got to make life itself worth living, but sometimes i forget...which might explain why im posting so i can remind myself more anything. I have to remind myself that i can do and be anything i wanted, that this life i have is the only one i have...for like.....ever, this is it. And i have to enjoy every second of it, i love making people laugh, i love watching all my cousins and the rest of the family couped up at our grandparents place with the yelling and screaming, i love being in love with a girl who understands me and loved me for who i was and the shitty baggage that comes with it, i love sitting on top of the roof sometimes and watch the stars and listening to my almost dieng Mp3, i love watching people from 2 different races and culture together, i love that god damn song in discovery where everyone sings their favourite routine, i love being around my friends, i love travelling, meeting different people and breathing in a different kind of air, i love sitting next to the window on the plane and watching the clouds and the city lights, i love my moms cooking, i love watching how my parents are with each other and how after all these years they are still very much in love, i love my nieces and nephews and i should spend more time with them. (ill spare you the others)

Life is just so short to waste it on being depressed or angry or sad...but of course shit happens to make us feel the way we do, and sometimes its so bad you just cant seem to shake the feeling off and so it just screws itself deeper inside you. But at times like these its the things you love and the people you love that help you get through it, even better when you have someone you truely love and respect to go through with it as well. I have so many regrets, stupid small mistakes that leads to another that leads to another ( you get the idea) and i know i screwed up bad, like real bad..and just because i want to fix it really bad doesnt mean its going to happen.

It didnt matter that some old guy that lay dieng in some hospital bed regretted everything he did, how he wished he could say he was sorry to his son, or wish he didnt act the way he did that caused his wife to leave him, it was too late. And no amount of wanting or trying would change that.(Note i said his gonna die any second so no he cant call his son in time)

So in a way you can redeem yourself but dont always trust that oppertunity to come knocking, not everyone you hurt will forgive you, not every stupid mistake you do just goes away. So what do you do? I think you need to forgive myself first, to stop hitting yourself for messing up, no one is perfect...you will always, and i mean always mess some major shit up but thats what life is all about isnt it? Giving you crap so you learn from it. Somehow this is straying hahah, but i think you get where i am going at here. (i hope)

Ok at this point my mind draws a blank, and im really tired. -yawn-
i might continue, then again maybe not. Good nite ~

The Legend of Zelda?

Hey hey and good afternoon to anyone and everyone, it is currently 12pm here in humid Malaysia and i have just gotten back from another driving test, it shall have been my third one...erm..this week. It seems to be going well, i mean besides the part where i almost ran down a police officer it was all good.....hehehe *evil laugh*. Note dont say "So your life is in my hands huh?" to your driving intructer before you drive, you get a better effect 5 minutes later on the road.


My grandfather god bless his soul passed away a few weeks ago, and im glad i got the chance to see him when i could last time when i was back...but of course it was never enough. Fortunately my mom was already in Ireland a few days ago before that so she got to spend sometime with him. I hope shes alrite, im terrible at cheering up the people i love when they got really upset or sad.

So my brother aaron is moving in a couple of days to the 12th (or was it 16th floor). Dear god before you know it the whole family is gonna each have their own floor, its kinda like living by yourself but technically not really. Although he is bringing the PS3 along so all is overlooked and forgiven. *nods seriously*


2 Brilliant games, no wait 3 are looking to be out this year which i can hardly wait for....*drum roll* STARCRAFT 2 (YAY) , DIABLO 3 (YAY) , AND CATACASLYM WoW (YAY) They all are so awesome i dont even have a favourite. But i really need to get this shitty old come upgraded and once i get the release ill start tinkering with it, that way if it blows up in my face ill have time to prepare.


The fridge is empty so every meal is like a battle for SURVIVAL. Plus im out of cash too since i havent had any request for drawings done this month hur hur hur, Penpal is such a bIt#h. And yes i am still in Kickboxing at SS15, ive made a few friends and it really is a great way to exercise...it is of course mentally and physcially exhausting but its a price i shall willingly pay to get MAH SEXAH BODEH.


Nothing much besides that, i think i should have my license by the 13th and Aifiq might decide to throw some huge party or something to celebrate. But more like a 'DEAR GOD HE FINALLY GOT IT' then a 'CONGRATULATIONS' kinda thing...they just need me to drive them home after they get wasted since i never get drunk. = =

Oh which reminds me before i go, A MUST WATCH. I have tons more of these posted on my facebook profile.

Heeeyyyy ~

Your lipstick stains on the front lobe of my left side brains
I knew I wouldn't forget you and so I went and let
You blow my mind
Your sweet moving
The smell of you in every single dream I dream
I knew when we collided you're the one I have decided
Whos one of my kind

Hey soul sister hey that mister mister on the radio stereo
The way you move aint fair you know
Hey soul sister I don't want to miss a single thing you do
Tonight
Heeey Heeeeey heeeey...

Just in time I´m so glad you have a one track mind like me
You gave my love direction
A game show love connection we can't deny
I´m so obsessed my heart is bound to beat right
Out my untrimmed chest
I believe in you like a virgin your Madonna
And I'm always gonna want to blow your mind

Hey soul sister hey that mister mister on the radio stereo
The way you move aint fair you know
Hey soul sister I don't want to miss a single thing you do
Tonight

Well you can cut a rug
Watching yous the only drug I need
Some gangster I'm so in love
You're the only one I'm dreaming of you see
I can be myself now finally
In fact there's nothing I can't be
I want the world to see you'll be with me

Hey soul sister hey that mister mister on the radio stereo
The way you move aint fair you know
Hey soul sister I don't want to miss a single thing you do
Tonight
(Repeat)
Heeey Heeeeey heeeey, tonight